My Battle with Breast Cancer

Hello? Anybody Out There?

Okay, I've been away from the blog for a while.  I don't really have a good excuse.  I could make something up, but I just don't want to.  I'm not that creative anyway.

Sure, part of the time I had an excuse.  Chemo knocked me on my butt fast this time, and I didn't recover as fast as I think I should.  Maybe my body is just tired.  It could've been because I had just returned from Rhode Island, and I was just tired. 

Who knows.

All I know is that I've missed you guys!

I don't really have anything important to say. 

I am doing well. (Now.)

I only have one more chemo treatment!!  YEAH!!

It seems some of the side effects are just now starting which is kind of surprising me.  My eyes started watering all the time.  At first I thought it was my allergies, so I took allergy medicine and it didn't help.  When I finally saw my doctor, he told me that it could be a side effect of the chemo.  Great!  I look like I am crying all. the. time.  The skin under my eyes is red and almost raw from me wiping the tears away all the time.  Nice. 

We have decided that we will not be doing Christmas photos this year.  At first I thought it would be a fun photo to have.  You know, since McD and I are both bald and all.  But, I have gained a lot of weight, I look like I am crying all the time, and redness under my eyes.  I really don't want my photo taken right now.  Can you blame me?

Oh, and to make everything even better…I think I am getting ready to lose my fingernails. 

Yep.  You read that right.

I feel like someone shoved something up under all of my fingernails and then just left it there.  I am pretty used to it now, but when I have to apply pressure to anything I certainly feel it.

The other night I described what it felt like to McD, and he looked at me kind of funny.  Then he asked me if I've ever had anything shoved under my fingernails.  And I have.  One day we were working outside and I got a splinter way up under my fingernail.  I worked for a doctor at the time, and he met me at the office to remove the splinter.  He had to ram some tweezer like things up under my nail to get the splinter out.  It hurt like h e double hockey sticks, but…I didn't cry.  :) 

So yes, McD, I do know what it feels like to have something shoved up under my fingernail.  🙂

That is kind of my update, and my apology to leaving everyone hanging lately.

I'll try to be better.

 

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27 Comments

  • Reply Amy | She Wears Many Hats September 30, 2011 at 4:39 pm

    Oh sweetheart…have missed you much but glad to hear you’re almost done with chemo. Sending hugs your way!

  • Reply Sandy September 30, 2011 at 6:26 pm

    You just work on making you better…we’ll all be fine and we’ll all be here when you’re ready. Love and prayers.

  • Reply Teri September 30, 2011 at 7:50 pm

    Glad to hear your chemo is almost done and that you’re doing ok. Really hope the side effects end soon.
    We miss you but want you to concentrate on getting better so take care of yourself okay?
    Sending a big hug and lots of good thoughts 🙂

  • Reply Wes September 30, 2011 at 10:29 pm

    You can talk about McD cleaning Dust Bunnies out of the China Cabinet as long as you’re OK! I wasn’t concerned yet, but was getting close! Thoughts and Prayers

  • Reply Megan (Best of Fates) September 30, 2011 at 10:53 pm

    I’m so glad you’ve returned, though now I am feeling just a little queasy about fingernails! I’m hanging out with my best friend and we’re writing letters to the soldiers on the list, so also thinking of you!

  • Reply Jen October 1, 2011 at 9:49 am

    No need to apologize, Julie. You just concentrate on getting better.Praying that the side effects will ease up soon for you. Hugs and blessings!

  • Reply Sheila October 1, 2011 at 11:38 am

    Good to hear from you. Take it one day at a time sister. Still working on the cybermealshare 🙂 keeping you in my prayers.

  • Reply Sayre October 1, 2011 at 11:42 am

    Hi! It is good to hear from you – was wondering how you were doing. Still praying for you everyday. I hope your side effects wane soon… they don’t sound like any fun at all. And I’m with you on the Christmas picture… If you don’t feel like doing it, DON’T!

  • Reply Jan October 1, 2011 at 11:44 am

    So glad to hear from you! How was R.I.? Sorry about all the side effects! Thank God it’s almost over! Still praying for you and hope to hear from you more often!

  • Reply Melanie October 1, 2011 at 12:42 pm

    Hi!! We’re definitely out here!! I’m sorry to hear about your side effects. I had watery eyes too….VERY annoying. My oncologist gave me some (Rx) eyedrops that seemed to help (Lotemax). I also lost my fingernails and toenails but not before they decided to get all white and oozy…..BLEH!! The docs said to soak my feet. That seemed to help the nail come off more quickly and easily (and start to heal). Something I’ve started recently is taking pre-natal vitamins – good for the hair, skin and nail regeneration — of course, check with your dr first. I only started taking those after chemo was done. I don’t know if it’s ok to take them during chemo. I know this sounds cliche but you really ARE BEAUTIFUL right now (bald head and all). I can barely remember that I was bald (some of my memory is a little fuzzy) so you may want a picture or two to remind you (maybe….maybe not). Hope you’re getting some nice sunshine (and not too much heat) in your area. Have a great day!! Love and Hugs!

  • Reply Kearsie October 1, 2011 at 1:08 pm

    Oh man. I only have one more to go as well! Partaaay. Well, I shall be partying with my medical marijuana pills, more like it. Also, my eyes are watering all the stinking time too! I thought it was just me! Also, what’s the point in wearing mascara, I ask you.
    We’re almost done, my friend!

  • Reply Lana @ Never Enough Thyme October 1, 2011 at 2:05 pm

    I sure have missed your posts and tweets! But most of all, right now, I’m just glad to hear that you’re okay. Not great, but okay. And that’s good enough for today 🙂

  • Reply Norma in Alabama October 1, 2011 at 4:43 pm

    I have missed your posts also, but understand your absence. You have been in my prayers with several of my breast cancer friends. We got a few small glimpses of you and McD on The Pioneer Woman this morning. I know it was filmed a while back but you looked great and you will look and feel great again. Hang in there and we’ll be waiting for you when you feel like sharing again. God bless.

  • Reply SharonFaye October 1, 2011 at 7:42 pm

    I’ve missed your posts, but I honestly can not believe you just apologized for not being able to blog lately. You’ve been concentrating on getting better. That takes priority, silly! Just hang in there. You’re always in my prayers.

  • Reply BB October 2, 2011 at 4:57 am

    Thinking of you Jools… things so nuts at our place at the moment, I suspect I have been a bit slack in the posting dept too. My excuses don’t stack up against yours though. Know I am always thinking of you (and praying for you too!).
    Big hugs from your Oz pal.
    🙂
    BB

  • Reply Lori October 2, 2011 at 8:12 am

    So good to see a post from you. I am glad you got your card I have sent out two more that were on the list. Love to send out cards. I need to go shopping for little care packages to send out. One more to go is GREAT praying daily for you. Lori

  • Reply Wenderly October 2, 2011 at 10:56 am

    Praying and thinking about you daily love. Wish I could give you a humongous squeeze in real life. You are a warrior. I am in awe of your strength & Grace.
    xoxo

  • Reply Nola T. October 2, 2011 at 12:10 pm

    Saw you yesterday, at the Pdub ranch party on food network. This is the Julie we know and you are still there, no hair or whatever. I can not imagine what you are going through, you are in my prayers. Bless you, continue healing.

  • Reply Mary in Idaho October 2, 2011 at 5:19 pm

    NOT forgotten and definately forgiven for not currently spending as much time on the computer. The Spirit doesn’t need a “blog” to promote us to pray for you. I’ve continued praying for your journey as the Lord brought you to my mind. Loved seeing you on PW’s show yesterday. That was a neat, unexpected surprise! Jesus loves you, this I know. Blessings.

  • Reply Betty G. October 2, 2011 at 11:49 pm

    Hey, so glad to hear from you and you HAVE been missed greatly by me. I knew you would be back – I was just biding my time waiting.
    About your Christmas photo … YOU would look beautiful to ALL who love you … no matter what. So sorry you are having the unusual side effects. Soon you will be finished with the chemo and you will return to your former beautiful self and your fingernails will no longer hurt. We will all pray for that to happen soon.
    Love to you and McD…. Betty & Ed G. in TN

  • Reply Swampwitch October 3, 2011 at 1:29 pm

    Hi JulieBug . . . seems like it’s been forever since we visited. Hope this note finds you feeling better. This month I’m going to try to focus many of my blog posts on Breast Cancer Awareness. When you have a minute or two, give me a call. XXXOOO

  • Reply Deb October 3, 2011 at 3:43 pm

    Hello!! Very good to hear from you! Still “mashing” for you and praying for the side effects to go away as quickly as possible!! My fingernails are now feeling sympathy pains for yours!!! OUCH!!! I certainly would be crying!! Great to see you and McD on Ree’s show! You’re famous TV stars now!!! Ya’ll looked great!!

  • Reply Debbie October 3, 2011 at 4:33 pm

    Oh Julie – I think chemo was one of the hardest things I’ve ever been through in my life. Each subsequent treatment was a little rougher than the previous one – but – each treatement also meant that I was getting closer to finishing – so I held on to that thought. The best piece of advice – baby yourself – you deserve it! As for the pics, I only have a couple of me while going through treatment. I didn’t look or feel good, but I am here 17 years later – a stage 3 breast cancer survivor. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • Reply Sandie October 3, 2011 at 7:27 pm

    You have every right to be missing in action for a bit. We all understand. I’m just glad that your feeling better and that you only have 1 more chemo left. Keep your spirits up. But the finger nails. Never heard that from anyone going thru chemo. We’re all there for you.

  • Reply CeeCee October 4, 2011 at 10:09 am

    I would think losing your fingernails would give you an ‘out’ as far as updating your blog!! I’m sorry you’re feeling so beat by the chemo. One more and you’re done. Hang in there! Prayers for peace and good day ahead.

  • Reply Monie October 4, 2011 at 10:40 am

    Just one more! What a wonderful thing. I’m sorry you have had suffering from the chemo. I hope it all gets better soon. You have been, and will continue to be, in my daily thoughts and prayers…

  • Reply Shelley October 4, 2011 at 11:26 pm

    I love you & think you are awesome … whether you’ve had something shoved up underneath your fingernail or not …

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